Hi everyone...had a big fight with the parental units yesterday so I went out and walked to my friend Nara's haus.She made me dinner and talked to me, and just being with her cheered me up.Today after getting a good night sleep for the first time in months, I wake up and go watch tv...only to find out later my asshole excuse for a father won't let me use the pc in the week, and I got so mad.

I'm mad at myself, for putting myself under their control again, and at them for backstabbing me every chance they get.To think just two months ago I was in Natal and had a laptop and money every month.I was happy and I didn't know it.Why, you ask?Merely because I didn't close the front door when my asshole father [link]'s why.

So I went upstairs and cried until my head was hurting so bad it felt like a brain tumor.Just a few minutes ago I grabbed a bottle of coke from the fridge and the whisky bottle and I'm gonna drink myself to sleep today.I just want to pass out, ya know.

My mom asked me to download a song for her and that's why I'm here.

I hope you all are happy, because I'm sure not.I hate my dad (fiercely) because all he does is sabotage me and consider me nothing but a source of expense.I hate people who only care about money.I wish I find a real man to be my father someday, a man who'll play that role for me because the man who was supposed to didn't.

Now I can't even talk to the one person who's always there with a kind word, because she's halfway across the globe and we can only talk online.and that would be .

I wish I could grow wings and just fly the fuck away from my stupid parents.

I've bothered y'all enough.See ya.God knows when.Anyways, gonna go get drunk.